December 21st, 2002

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well, that was interesting...

today was the rehearsal for the concert tonight. anne, who gives me a lift back every week, had asked if i could try and make it there at 10.30 to help with chairs - i said i would, if i wasn't packing and/or asleep. so i woke up at 9.30, promptly thought 'screw that' and went back to sleep again, after setting the alarm for 11.30.

i'm pretty sure i don't remember the alarm going off again. next thing i knew i was semi-awake thinking 'i wonder what time it is? and looking at my clock and promptly going "frell!!!" (yes, i DO say that in real life...) because it was 1.12. the rehearsal was at 1.30. so i got up, dressed, and legged it down the road in about 5 minutes,a nd got there at 1.31. not bad ;)

and i watched "once more, with feeling!" twice last night, once while taping, and then the last 10 minutes (from giles' song onwards) again. for some reason, those final parts really got to me. for example:

~ the pairing of tara and giles in their duet is just really frelling cool.

~ this exchange between buffy and spike made me go "ouch" both times over. i'd never realised before just how owwy it is...

spike: forget them, love, i've got your back.
buffy: i thought you wanted me to stay away from you. isn't that what you sang?
[then the xander/anya exchange]
spike: fine. i hope you dance 'til you burn. you and the little bit...

owww... when buffy's pushed him so far that he wants his bit to burn, you know it's bad.

~ and then the entire of 'walk through the fire', which is a great song anyway, but specifically this line: "i will walk through the fire, 'cause where else can i turn?" again, i say, owww... this, followed by spike's rambling ruminations on his 'plan', starting with "first he'll kill her, then i'll save her" - which can only mean that he would turn her if he had to, and at this stage would probably do it willingly and regret it afterwards. and then, followed with "no, i'll save her, then i'll kill her" - which can either mean he's really had enough, or the same as the other one.

~ the final refrain of sweet's song is also scarily poignant. "what a lot of fun / you guys have been real swell. / and there's not a one / who can say this ended well. / all those secrets / you've been concealin' / say you're happy now / once more, with feelin'!" etc. it's so true. i think last night was actually the only time i really listened to the lyrics properly. or i've been listening to it so long on the soundtrack without the pictures that it suddenly made more sense... i dunno. weird, anyway...

wow. remind me never to watch that late at night again...

oh, then i rewatched monday's 'farscape' and sat there going "meeeep" for the entire everyone-as-everyone-else sequence because a) claudia black frelling IS chiana at times, and b) the aforementioned faith brown resemblence. meep, meep and triple meep...