February 21st, 2003

Photo - leaves

sleep, food, dreams, in that order.

two things to talk about today. well, sort of three, the first being that when i went to bed at 3.30 this morning, i said to myself, "i will get up at 10 o'clock, because i've had enough sleep already this week" - and when i woke up at 9 o' clock, i thought, 'yay, extra hour to go'. then the fire alarm went off at half past. then i woke up at ten. then i woke up again at ten to two.

*resigned sigh* tomorrow, i will get up at ten o'clock...

anyway, now for the lowdown of this morning - having got up, i decided to make breakfast/lunch/food. so i opened a tin of tuna and the mayonnaise and set to work... then realised i have no butter left. so i thought, okay, i can put this in the fridge and go down to jackson's later for some more. fine, i can have cereal... oh, no i can't. no milk. bugger.

so i've got lumpy chicken cupasoup. joy.

anyhoo, here's a lowdown of my dream/s between the hours of ten and two... i'll lj-cut the dream, then un-cut the possible meanings. just to whet your appetite if you skip it :P oh, and i imagine it's entirely allan's fault - those i told will understand, everyone else can just hazard wild guesses...

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now for what it could all possibly mean...

(1) the blue curtains on the bed - i know where that came from! i was watching something the other night that i just happened to glance over at, and there was a conservatory with these hideous blue drapes... exactly like that! yay! mystery solved...
(2) not being able to play the piano - a constant anxiety at the moment... might as well be manifested in dreams, too ;)
(3) i do, in fact, have one on monday morning, which i have no idea how to do...
(4) there has to be some significance to her being dressed as catwoman. any ideas? although in some ways i think the whole michelle pfeiffer thing symbolises allan, who is my intermediate link to jeremy, as he knows him better than me and knows his frelling e-mail address... which is what started this whole thing. not that allan in any way resembles catwoman. that, i just can't understand, but symbolically, it's allan... he's going to end up being my mercury, he really is...
(5) i do not remember the details of the converrsation in question, but i do know that this morning i woke up feeling more refreshed and far less mopey than yesterday, so it must have been cathartic in some way...
(6) this could possibly be in reference to last week, when i'd decided i couldn't make it to crit theory because i was so damned tired after the jeremysaturday, and ended up sleeping through the first hour of picturing books in the process...
(7) hm, possible overtones of wanting all my friend groups to gel and knowing it's impossible? it made me realise that i miss them both like hell at the moment...

wow. bizarre.

that's it. let's hope this isn't over the word count...
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