T'eyla Minh (teylaminh) wrote,
T'eyla Minh

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I am feeling quite positive as of 4.45 this afternoon.  Why?  Because since I spotted the WPO/Audio Typist job going on the jobs page, and after reading the Job Description for the CPA position, I decided that I definitely didn't want the latter.  I can't jobshare with Sandra, I don't want to do the job, and hence, sent Tina Hartland the following email:

Hi Tina,

I received the Job Description this morning; thank you.

Unfortunately, I have bad news for you. I've been doing a lot of thinking this weekend and I've decided not to apply for the CPA job.

I have yet to hear anything from the Legal Services job after my interview, but my gut feeling is that I haven't got that job. The interview - and most of last week - was quite stressful for me, and I think some of that stress was because I was unsure what to do if I did get offered the job. I don't want to end up in a 'worst case scenario' of turning down the Legal job (if I get it), going for the CPA job, not getting that, and ending up right where I started after a lot of undue stress.

I've spotted another job this morning that I'm going to apply for (Audio Typist/WPO in Chief Executive's, which has the eventual potential to go up to Scale 4). So this is also to let you know that I might need a reference again...

I thought it best to let you know now as the minuting test is this Friday. I'd still be willing to undertake that if it's possible because I think the experience will be useful, but I'm not in a position right now to apply for the CPA job, and obviously, I understand that undertaking the minuting test may not now be possible.

Seeing the JD this morning reminded me that I considered applying for it when it was advertised a few months ago, and decided not to for various reasons. I admit that the money was tempting (of course!) but at the moment I think I'm better off in a similar position to where I am now, experience or otherwise.

The ongoing issues with Sandra are also a factor in this decision, and even though I agree that things might be different if I were the same 'rank' as her, I still feel that the other, minor issues are going to continue, and it's reaching the point where I'm no longer prepared to put up with it.

I apologise for the short notice (and the disappointing email, I'm sure...) but I needed the past four days to clear my mind away from work. Seeing the Chief Exec's job this morning has also helped in my decision, and I'd rather focus my energy into applying for that - and any following tests/interviews - than worrying about whether the CPA position is right for me.

I'd like to thank you and Carol for offering me the opportunity to apply for the CPA job.  I haven't CCed her into this email as I'm unsure how much of what we discuss in supervision goes back to her, but you can forward as much of this as you feel appropriate.

Please could you get back to me ASAP re: the minuting test? Thanks.

No reply as yet but I fully expect either another email or a phonecall tomorrow morning.  I'm not letting her push me into taking a job I'm not guaranteed to get and that I don't particularly want.

Anyway.  Better things.  This is the watch I bought on Saturday.  The picture lies, though - the leather bits don't cross over like that, they're straight.  It's still pretty.

I can't find a photo of my trainers because teH intarweb sucks at finding anything that's not currently in fashion from any given designer range.  Stupid fashion.  Anyway, they're pale blue, skinny and have embroidery and silver detail on them.  With zips.  Quite cool.  If I wasn't so tired I'd take an actual photograph, but I really can't be arsed.

We went to the Dog for tea, which was nice.  I have fifteen tonnes of stuff to pack by 17th June (hopefully) and it's currently looking quite futile, especially since my mum and David will be in Turkey on that date...  Hurrah.  I would like someone to invent transporters now, please, so I could just... move stuff.  Instantly.  And also myself.

Also, my connection keeps going off and on because it's a bastard.  I'm giving up now.  Positivity is somewhat drowned by food-induced tiredness...
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